About Me #introduction
I'm Payton, a 41 year old geek from east central Scotland. I program computers in Python for a living, and I'm interested in fashion, technology, videogames, cinema, and art. I also enjoy walking, swimming, photography, cookery, and sewing. I'm learning silversmithing at the moment, although I can't guarantee that I will still be doing so in a year's time.
I mostly plan on using this site for journalling and shitposting. There might be the occasional selfie or photograph of something creative.
Finding it interesting comparing my new X-E1 with my older camera (a Nikon J1, a 1-inch sensor system camera).
The additional size definitely means that I can't be as adventurous with it. On the other hand, it seems to have a ferocity that the J1 lacked. It's almost like trying an industrial sewing machine after being used to home machines.
The first time I realized how far I could push it in terms of shot frequency was quite eye opening.
Got myself a new camera to replace my Nikon J1, which is not behaving itself anymore. The replacement is a Fujifilm X-E4, which has a much larger sensor, and considerably more processing power onboard. It is also a fair bit larger, so I am hoping that this won't be the end of my previous snap-happy relationship with my system camera.
Have been thinking about taking some drawing classes in the autumn. There's a few options I fancied. Look and Draw are doing a life drawing course and an introduction to colour. I think it'll be useful for me to do these, and they will build on the last drawing class I took a few years back. The location is also very convenient for me.
Pleased with the way the broccoli and stilton soup turned out. Thinking that the caraway seeds made a big difference. Used a lot of mirepoix. More of that than of the broccoli. And half a head of savoy cabbage that was hiding in the fridge. There may also have been a good splash of sherry too.
Gender dysphoria, weight
About a year ago (one year on cross-sex hormones), I found I was a lot more comfortable with the face I saw looking back at me in the mirror. I was starting to see myself, rather than someone else.
Slowly, I started to feel better about my body. As the curves started to appear, and I started to acquire a defined waist, I no longer felt disgusted with the way I looked despite being heavier than I had been in years.
At the two year mark, I am actually really starting to love my body. It's no longer a matter of incongruity in my mind. I see a feminine shape from the front, and from the side. I see me, and seeing myself brings me joy.
Not really a mahō shōjo
On the internet, everyone knows you're a cat — and that's totally okay.