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hello, dear people!
i’m raphael, and this is my toot over here. :)

i like a variety of things (python programming, rock climbing, puns, dark wave, drawing, archery, tea, cats, chocolate…), tend strongly towards the nerdy/shy, and am coming to this instance from

hey y’all! <3

someone really cool joined the fediverse today, follow very recommended!

@margaret – margaret killjoy, who you know from her amazing band feminazgul or her podcast ‘live like the world is dying’, or any of the other cool things she’s doing.

she good.

today’s lessons:

* that one hacky script to get a job done quickly, with hardcoded everything because ‘i’m not going to change that’? you are gonna change that, and the time you saved hacking it together was not worth the headache of dealing with it now. (plus all the time you felt iffy about it being hacky)
* ‘i’ll just edit this real quick in the system’s GUI text editor’? no, don’t, this is how you spell suffering, and given the point above, you are having enough of that right now.

i don’t know what it says about me, but i’m currently writing a small in-character recap for our d&d campaign.
2 pages in, i have 8 footnotes, only one of them is me speaking, and i have been thwarted by pandoc once because it doesn’t allow footnotes on footnotes.

a propos of nothing in particular, this your reminder that squirrel girl beat up thanos without breaking much of a sweat. and beat the entire marvel universe by building a dependency graph of superpowers.

and also that whenever she could get away with not throwing fists at a problem until it stopped being a problem, she did so. which led to forging respectful friendships with kraven and galactus.

this is a really cool intro to prepping that talks about how to really think about ensuring that needs get met, and gives the bunker gun nut prepper the boot: (by margaret killjoy, of feminazgul fame)

@milan gerade gesehen: neue amd-serverprozessoren heissen epyc milan und sind schnell. zufall? ein schelm, wers glaubt!


currently playing: the absolutely phenomenal ‘no dawn for men’ by feminazgul. (

jr. bean (jean mr. bean)

am i doing these right?

workout done. conclusion: +15kg still seems too little extra weight for the size of edge i’m holding. could get through all reps without much trouble – a clear sign they’re not quite hard enough.

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last hour of 2020, how it’s going here:

* tea in the mug
* climbing videos on the screen
* harness on, hangboarding with yet more added weight.

and now we’re reaching the festive part of christmas (celebrations are on the 24th here): making order in my .vimrc

excrement mention (excremention?) 

hell hath no smells like a persian cat’s diarrhea stuck in their bum fur.

did we do jyberpunk (jean cyberpunk) already?

ok, but every once in a while you write some code that’s both elegant and produces results exactly as good as you imagined and it’s the best feeling.

guess who just spent one and a half hours in the middle of the night debugging an XSLT function when all it did wrong was check an attribute against a mistyped value.

i think i just spent the better part of an hour on a pair of dummy git repos trying to work out an operation that might come up at work in a couple of weeks.

on one hand: jfc.

on the other: i am kinda glad i did that because i would’ve made a proper mess. now i have notes.

covid, how to think about retirement/nursing homes (long) 

i’ve seen it a bunch that the covid situation in all kinds of care homes gets derided as a variant of ‘homg, so bad, these people are dying in such numbers, what is the staff even doing?’

since i get to see some of the inside baseball, let’s talk about what the situation is like, what choices staff can make, what the effect of those choices is, and consequently, which outcomes staff (and therefore homes) can get blamed for:

homes are concentrations of people that are *highly* susceptible to really bad outcomes not just from covid, but any severe illness – by and large, they are old to very old, and they have some combination of ailments, physical and/or mental, that mean they can’t care for themselves, and the level of care they need exceeds what their family and immediate social circle can do. at the same time, care staff isn’t medical staff. their ability to administer treatment for covid is zero – in cases of severe illness, patients must go to the hospital or at least see a doctor.

so, given that care staff are sitting on a powder keg when it comes to an illness like covid, and their own options for treatment are severely limited, their number one choice of action is to try and delay covid infections in the house as much as possible. because if it gets a foothold, it’s going to be close to impossible to contain, and outcomes are going to be bad. if there is something that a house can be blamed for, it’s lack of stringent outside contact protocols. not cutting off the ability to visit patients early and hard is such a liability.

that also means that their best-outcome endgame is to minimise chance of getting infections in-house so much that their play for time pays off: the covid situation outside gets under control before they get infections among their patients. if society at large maintains a virulent covid situation outside over time, that is stacking the cards against the house – it’s never a question of IF covid can get inside, it’s WHEN. if a house managed to keep covid at bay through a large part of the second wave, the failure is not on the staff, but on society at large. their insistence on not bringing covid under strict control is to blame.

once covid reaches a house, the extent of consequential choice for staff is when to hand off sick patients to hospitals. whether that is an option also depends on that hospital/ICU capacity being available, i.e. it’s again not on the house alone.

long story short: if a patient in a retirement home gets sick because society insisted on keeping a second wave going and going and going, that patient gets to a hospital when they show symptoms, and dies there, there is nothing to blame the staff for. they did all that was in their power.

and you know what that entails? it entails care workers having been locked down privately since march because they know they are the number one transmission risk to their patients. their patients are people they see every work day, they talk to, they listen to, they *care* for as humans. it becomes a quasi-familial level of intimacy. and they do that knowing they will have to say goodbye to each and every one of them. it’s not a part of the job you can fully close yourself off to, that you can go home from. the moment you do that, you stop being able to do that job.

so imagine you are doing that job. a job that’s physically and emotionally hard to begin with. that is usually understaffed and often underfunded. and that you have been making severe private sacrifices for, so you don’t bring illness and death to the people in your care.

and then you see governments committing to half-assed measures at best. you see people demonstrating for their right to not be restricted in having a virus-ridden pint with the lads for the sake of their mental health. you see the clock ticking against your people. you see people turn their backs on you and the people you care for.

and eventually, you get blamed for what you couldn’t have stopped from happening.

this is hard shit.

sorry for the long ramble, everyone. i had to get this off my chest, and i feel it’s something useful to have in your mind.

people in retirement or nursing homes are doing one hell of a job. at the best of times, they don’t get the recognition they deserve. at the worst, they are working themselves to the limits of what a person can take to maybe stave it off for another day, on the gamble that this will be the day they will have held out long enough to get their people through, only to be left hanging by the rest of us and then blamed for it.


all in all, i feel validated in not liking adidas too much. my dislike was based more on their business practises when they bought up climbing shoe manufacturer 5.10, dissolved a big part of 5.10’s expertise & manufacturing, and then insisted that every tiny outdoors store that wanted to stock 5.10 shoes have a mandatory minimum buy-in of 10k EUR per year in adidas gear. which might be doable for larger shops or stores catering to larger demographics, but is absolutely impossible for notoriously tiny and specialised climbing/alpinism stores.

and now they’re making pig boots, too, and they’re heckin’ ugly on top?

validated as fuck.

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in other news, i was yesterday years old when i found out that adidas built boots for the german GSG-9 (federal police tactical unit), and not only does it look like a completely unholy union between sneakerhead douchecanoe shoe and modern military boot, they even put their fucking adidas stripes on it in tactical black on black to increase its douchecanoeity.

like… look at this abomination!

y’all are going to laugh at me for being so late to this party, but a friend enlightened me to eating potato chips with chopsticks. and now i feel like i have been taught tool usage for the first time.


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