hello, dear toot.cat people!
i’m raphael, and this is my #introductions toot over here. :)
i like a variety of things (python programming, rock climbing, puns, dark wave, drawing, archery, tea, cats, chocolate…), tend strongly towards the nerdy/shy, and am coming to this instance from mastodon.social.
hey y’all! <3
mh --- but with some +
over the last days, i’ve been a ball of anxiety basically unable to function. shit might go down that could deprive me of payoff for the last years’ worth of study i did. i’m terrified of how many unknowns i’m facing.
but today, i phoned who i could, wrote all the emails i could, and tried talking myself that no matter the outcome, i will still be me. life will go on. somehow.
and then i went to the climbing gym. the world reduced itself to a small set of moves between coloured plastic holds right in front of me. puzzle-solving. athleticism. then i went home, ate, and made tea. i feel like it’s the first time i breathed this week.
not only am i slowly starting to grok that the big question in the room is only big on the surface and the small everyday things that light a corner of the world up with joy are deep and important, despite seeming small on the surface, i feel i made more progress with my studies just this evening than all of last week.
uuuugh, that feeling when you suddenly realise a misunderstanding that could cost you the payoff for the last years’ work. that clump of ice in the pit of your stomach, a brain incapable of entertaining any other thought, except regularly interjecting the general notion what a colossal failure one is.
yt algo, fash bs
i know i’m kinda preaching to the choir here, but it’s massively astounding how much youtube’s algorithm is pushing fashy bs.
with no google account, just blocked tracking & regularly deleted cookies, watching almost exclusively rock climbing- or making-related stuff on yt, at least one of the recommendations always is a variation of ‘jordan peterson DESTROYS…’.
what an obsession this algorithm has with that particular washed-up lousy excuse of an intellectual.
TFW your random playlist throws the first few notes of any nier:automata song at you, and your mood becomes instant melancholy. #sadrobotmusic
nothing quite like having told co-workers that a specific, fine-grained markup for a certain case would probably come in handy in the future, then being told ‘oh no, it’s fine enough as free text, we need the unstructured freedom’ and a couple of years later, getting a wish list from the same co-workers that would benefit greatly from having the markup to provide the meaning that i now have to parse from free text.
rock climbing stuff, good read
rock & ice have an excerpt from alex honnold’s mother’s book, and it’s a really nice combination of general rock climbing feels and how ‘small’ experiences can improve your understanding of ginormous ones.
#rockclimbing #climbing #alexhonnold
death, manga author
aw man, apparently, kazuo koike died. :(
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