Here's a bit of my art, on the newly created Ko-Fi page:
Here's an update, cross-posted on the gofundme page:
Here's a picture (or three), because despite needing money to survive, I just want to be left alone (by society) so I can make cool stuff (and share it):
police beating, injuries, lack of justice, youtube link (kgw news footage)
...just a periodic reminder that the Marion County deputies broke my nose, gave me a concussion, and detained me in a psych ward for almost a week, for the crime of...oh wait the charges were dropped because they were BULLSHIT to begin with.
And, not only are they denying ANY fault or wrongdoing on their end, I am expected to pay for the medical bills out of my own pocket.
functions.sh, #darkpi, progress report(s),
Under active development:
http://functions.sh is an open source project for activism, fun, and (non)profit.
For freedom of hardware, choice, and because it's time someone did the sysadmins a solid.
Currently being actively developed, if any of you #bash hackers want to hop on board, I'm going to try to explain the utility as I develop it, but your questions help the most.
Communicate what you don't understand about it, and I'll attempt response.
Declaration of War
Out loud, if you can manage it.
Choose to fight with me.
Fight for life.
Fight for fairness.
Crush them with words until they cry and run away.
Slay them with weapons that are mightier than any sword, gun, or SWAT attempt.
Ætherperson, Architect, Engineer, Poet, Scholar, Pirate, Storyweaver
I've also been known as:
* The Flavel Fixer
* Captain Jak
* BOfH and PFY
* Pirate Ninja Samarai Nightclaw Shaman half-Ork Germanish Humanoid
* and occasionally, Todd, Ryu, or Beast.
https://assorted.tech <-- me_irl
I will fix your computer/phone/car/house/etc if you ask nicely.
potterverse, practical management fixes, fanfic-adjacent
do you know how many of Hogwarts' problems would be solved by the addition of an 'undecided' house where all the kids who want to form their own secret societies could hang out?
And have house permit applications, jeeze.
Magical creatures need some representation, and a society dedicated to the pursuit of cateloguing secret societies is an absolute must.
We'll call it the Archive, perhaps.
current mood, mh (+), selfie, !eyecontact (eyes obscured)
just breathing today.
maybe some light cleaning.
(Attached image is of an enby, tilting towards the viewer a sun hat with the words "do not disturb" in flowing script. Their face is obscured, but the red of their shirt contrasts with the dark blue of the hat.)
friendship meta, self-actualization
if you are fine how you are,
that change is unnecessary in your life,
you are not worth my time.
i cannot carry you,
(and will not try),
if you will not exert effort
on your own behalf.
i constantly perform self-analysis
and integrate input
and adjust patterns of behavior
and direct my outward scrutiny with an attempt at gentleness.
i will also give you space and time
if your need is a distance or a perspective shift
if my word are burning and heavy
if my voice is shrill and you just get *annoyed*by the sound of it.
My path is not adjacent to yours.
My path is my own, and I decide for myself my direction in each moment as it arrives.
I will change my opinion and discuss rigorously as I am able.
Apologizing for my communication disability or that my questions fail to produce a satisfactory answer from you is out of the question.
And if you struggle to communicate that, and articulate that to me, I will fight for you to be heard.
loss of compatriot(s) meta, resisting, and war, w/ minour sware (pg13)
What does war mean?
War means turning your pain and outrage into weapons against the oppression.
War means making peace over petty differences.
War means it's time to decide which side of history you want to be remembered on.
War means resisting actively, or living with the knowledge that you are aiding the aggressors.
War means making yourself a platform for others, so they can resist alongside you.
War means pulling together towards safety *while simultaneously* defending and resisting.
War means your community will be tested, and your neighbors (and your devices) will spy on you.
War means working asymmetrical to the defences of antagonists, and agreeing on temporary truces for your petty differences.
War is shit, kids, and I really wish I wasn't so certain it's coming to our 'Verse.
Are you prepared to hold the line for the rest of us?
social media, evacuate your peeps, boost 👍
If you're still on the book of faces, it's time to evacuate the decent folx from that particular network.
intro to mastodon?, hey fediverse hivemind...
Anyone have a link to that beginner's guide to the fediverse that was floating around a while ago?
Have a friendly that wants to know more after @sesshirecat asked them if they had a fedi account.
I'm looking for the one that was behind https://medium.com/@GinnyMcQueen/toot-how-to-intro-to-mastodon-e5655bfa87d2 but it's 404 rn.
debian, build pipelines, and git
On my (circa 2012 i7) build server, running the full git compile process takes 4 hours, 39 minutes.
The server got hot enough (because `make -j$(nproc)`) that the edge of the system case burned a mark on my hand.
Time to upgrade my thermal dissipation paradigm, doo-da-lee-doo...
I need to test a network thing.
How many of y'all have a Raspberry Pi that could temporarily run a custom image on my behalf?
Looking for 3+ volunteers but in theory there's no upper limit.
selfcare, sui-adjacent, guided-meditation-ish-adjacent?, consent-adjacent, unintended consequences meta
Self-care is taking those moment to put a drop of energy into...well, you.
The job can wait.
The food can wait.
The next form letter can wait.
You can do this next time you pee.
Or at a stop light.
Even if a cop is in your face.
I know. It's hard.
Just remember to keep breathing.
Death is about the only thing "modern" medicine cannot yet fix.
Keep each-other breathing.
Keep our communities alive.
Keep our cultures intact and alive.
Keep our actions consentful and mindful of past traumas.
Keep our paths and our actions focused on the needs of the many, while being willing to sacrifice our pride for the betterment of someone in need who crosses our path.
Keep one another breathing.
selfcare, guided-meditation-ish-adjacent?, consent-adjacent, unintended consequences meta
you may have been
(whether implicitly or explicitly)
taught that selfcare is unnecessary.
taught that it was extraneous and lazy.
taught that it was selfish.
that it was inherently wrong to take care of your own needs.
that it was wrong to take care of your body.
that may not have been what the teacher thought they were teaching.
what you learned are lies.
Care *must* for yourself first.
You cannot pour from an empty cup.
Whether milkshaking (punching?) a fascist, setting up (developing?) free software, or debating (arguing?) the finer points of how we respond (as communities or individuals) to fediverse meta, or even if you're just here for kicks and giggles:
Self care is good.
You can take time for it.
Breathe for yourself for a moment.
You deserve five seconds.
Feel your lower belly expand a little as the oxygen sinks into you.
Let it out.
You did it.
meta meta, moderation
Three self-moderation adjacent tools I'd like to have:
1) the ability to approve boosts
2) the ability to feature someone on my profile, like a 'latest toots from @accountname' box or something. Or even a single toot.
3) the ability to comment on a boosted toot, that didn't require the uncertainty of pasting a link and my instance caching the metadata/content/context correctly?
Is it possible to pin toots from other users, @woozle ?
Do better, and I'll consider treating you as something other than a hostile to protect my people from, but also to be learned from, observed from a safe distance, and carefully encouraging towards a slightly less shitty path.
Block me, my instance, or whatever you want.
I may block you back.
Or mute you.
Depends on why I've noticed you.
That one's mostly on you, my tolerance for bull shyte and backstabbing is great but definitely not infinite.
Send me constructive feedback, or a suggestion for a moderation tool, and I'll analyze it, deconstruct it, and fold it in with my other plans to 'fix' the fediverse.
This is a marathon, and we're all running the same general direction.
Survival, individually, and as a community, is my priority.
If survival offends, you are the problem.
meta meta, boost okay, play nice
regardless of what we boost, fave, or interact with, my policy on harassment of marginalized individuals is the same as my policy for all flawed humans:
Pick on someone your own size.
Bullies get the boot.
And if you've been called a bully, and disagree?
My message to you?
This is for you.
depression, selfharm adjacent, mh (-), disability, spoons, autism, pol/lea anger, sui
and that's why I keep gritting my teeth and keep telling the reaper "not today".
that's why I write this.
Because this planet needs people like you and I.
Because there's your neighbors need you and I.
Because there's enough blood on the ground already.
Because, out there, someone is reading this, and they're echoing bits of this along with their internal monologue, and they are thinking, *for the first time*:
"I am not alone."
Someone else knows what I'm going through.
Anyone can wear the mask.
That mask is fear.
That mask is "I'm fine".
That mask is a layer of plastic, cracking at the corners of our smiles.
I witness your struggle.
I witness your pain.
I walked this path, and it is too much to ask of anyone.
If you choose today, I hope you find peace.
If you choose today, I understand.
And I choose, not today.
re: depression, selfharm adjacent, mh (-), disability, spoons, autism, pol/lea anger, sui
"...this life is overwhelming and i'm ready for the next one..."
These words, the final audible sounds of Badflower's "Ghost" track, have crystallized an immense amount of the intensely "not wanting to keep living" feelings that I...wade through...on a daily basis.
The clinical names are things like "chronic depression" and "generalized anxiety disorder" but the real kicker, the one that keeps me...gritting my teeth at the edge of suicide, even now, over a year since being beaten, is that little line item "ideation".
My mind invents a thousand, thousand ways to allow my current environment to kill me.
Most of them are even painless.
...and I'm done.
Life goes on for the rest of you, and I'm part of your memory archive.
No more pain.
No more fear.
No more nightmares where I wake up checking my hands for blood.
No more lies.
*IT WOULD BE SO EASY*
depression, selfharm adjacent, mh (-), disability, spoons, autism, pol/lea anger, sui
Applying for disability (autism related) again.
They ask me to describe how i feel.
i am a minescual island of stability upon which my conciousness balances, and everythign else is deep pain.
pain in my arm. pain in my back. in my head. pain in my ankles and legs. in my hips.
pain, constantly, so much that i barely notice bruising and cuts.
All these from being assaulted by cops.
I do the work.
I fill out the forms.
I'm intentional about my honesty about how things are, and the daily problems I have.
How the chaos in my environment destablizes me more and more as my money runs out, and how i cringe away from human contact, how my coping mechanisms become less and less effective, and how many panic attacks i have.
I submit it.
Well, to be honest, @sesshirecat submits it for me, because they're helping me.
The page errors out.
All that work i just did is lost.
...i want to die.
Never forget the ones they took from us.
Never forgive them for taking them from us.
Never stop fighting for a better world.
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