Time to re-#introduction for the latest influx...
I'm ehashman! I have a hard time with intros because I feel like the most important parts of me are also ones I don't like sharing publicly. But I'm unapologetically disabled, queer, and looking forward to getting to know you a bit before you follow me.
I like technology that's in service of people, and recognize that tech isn't just military, industry, or software. I'm an amateur naturalist and cook. My public food alt is on @firstname.lastname@example.org.
The worst part of taking a medication that tastes like a combination of bitter melon and Epsom salt is that the taste is somehow even MORE intense at night. I keep drifting out of sleep and then JOLT awake in the middle of the night because my mouth tastes like poison
People who think "Open Source is thriving, it's everywhere!" and are all optimistic about it are doing the same thing as the people with electric cars and solar panels on their McMansions thinking that we're on track to deal with the climate crisis.
The *real* solutions for a healthy sustainable FLO world are all still marginalized and struggling, and the capitalist #greenwashing and #openwashing serve mainly to delude people about the state of things.
Also no one warned me that paxlovid comes with a bitter taste to rival the most offensive IPA https://www.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2022/05/pfizer-paxlovid-covid-pill-side-effects/629772/
Update: significantly worsened symptoms today, another super faint positive RAT, another negative NAAT. Decided on the balance of probabilities that it's better to take paxlovid than not, even if this isn't COVID. Hoping I start feeling better soon 😓
Recognizing that every life has value, that we all have something to bring to the table, that everyone is only temporarily abled---this will lead us to build a society that serves and cherishes everyone.
Refusal is to abandon our future selves. Health is not a moral good.
My guess as to where this comes from: under capitalism, your best chance for dignity with disability is to have the means to afford care. Necessary care becomes conflated with luxury. Resentment of the rich is redirected towards the disabled as "freeloaders."
(The other possibility is that I do have COVID, but the case is so mild it's not showing up on a PCR/NAAT. This is possible but pretty unlikely, especially with repeated tests. My suspicion is that swabbing cheeks/throat first thing in the morning [acidity] might have caused it)
For giggles I calculated the likelihood of getting a false +ve RAT, since I have the data from the FDA at https://ehashman.github.io/rapid-tests/ and can pull prevalence counts from King County.
Since I've tested so many times (at least 50!) I have about a 20% chance of at least one false +ve!
Whatever this is, I've been totally knocked on my ass. Spent the last 2 days in bed and I suspect this will continue for at least a few more days 😓
International florespondent, 🇨🇦 settler south of the medicine line, exhausted tech worker. Tea aficionado. Amateur botanist, naturalist, and radio operator. אין אלע גאסן וווּ מען גייט...
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